Dear Oog:
This is the time to come clean.
I am still working full time at Erie Count Medical Center, which is, at
least for Psychiatry, the major teaching hospital of University at
Buffalo. I am currently working in the vicinity of 40 hours a week as
Medical Director of Outpatient Department. As such I have no on call or
weekend responsibilities. It turned out that I am the most senior
physician in our department in terms of longevity.
I have no definite plan to retire at this time. It is not because I am
particularly dedicated to what I am doing, but it is more due to the fact
that I do not know what to do with my life once retired. It is a little
sad commentary in that I do not have any specific hobbies(such as birding,
golfing, gardening, world trotting, opera or web surfing), or identifiable
talents(such as calligraphy, painting, sculpting, photographing, cabinet
building, gambling or writing poems and prose).
Am I getting satisfaction from what I do? I say so but with less than
perfect conviction. I am waiting for a sudden and miraculous
"enlightenment" which will guide me to the world of mystic bliss.
I welcome your help.
S.K.